I hate you

It' s weird how people walk around abusing the word love, but when someone utters the word HATE, it' s like the whole room freezes up.

"Hate is a strong word!"

Ever since I could remember I've hated her, blamed her, for everything in my life that' s gone wrong. But still I've wasted fucking four years, fucking my life up, just so that maybe she' d be there, look at me, care.
Maybe it' s a terrible approach, of course I know it is, but honestly, I feel like everything in my life had been leading up to that moment, I just needed one little push to go over the edge.

I feel like some kind of animal in a cage, where she' s poking sticks at me all the time, and sometimes I used to feel like I would rip that cage open and go for her throat.
After a long time, I started threatening her, telling her how much I wanted her to die, how I imagined her head would look in the car front window. Bleeding like a bitch.
Bleeding out, dying, getting out, out of me, out of my life. GONE

xoxo
It' s on my skin, it will not vanish, spelled, a four letter word, HATE